Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Monday, April 17, 2006

beautiful

it touches you deep inside. grabs your heart and gives it a little shake.
it suffocates you. tears flow. and yet you are smiling helplessly. inside outside.

you think

the meaning of life. meaning of existence. meaning.
it brings meaning to almost everything. meaning to whatever it touches.

no. it does not always bring happiness. not even satisfaction.

it overwhelms you. a mere undefinable overwhelming feeling. a feeling that fills you.
takes over.

yearn.



you crave more. you feel deeply.
you cry.



so beautiful

you must break away.
before it grabs hold.


move on

Friday, April 07, 2006

tamil


In library working on random project. borrowed headphones.

tam playlist

aah

listening to tamil songs after so long.

couldn't stop myself from smiling like a moron each time a new song began.
just felt so nice.

so home.

each song bringing on a rush of memories. heady

school. random trips to beach playing antakshari. prancing around with cousins as a kid. jokes. teenage daydreams. tears. love of my life kamalhaasan. superhits. gaana

i miss that lifestyle. the tam lifestyle. hehe

i cant seem to speak tamil properly anymore. stutter stammer break off into english some vagueass accent. whats the point of being a chennai ponnu if i dont know chennai tamil.

blah. nonsense. once tam always tam. for better or worse :)
itll be back to normal once i get home.

now

back to petai rap




Thursday, April 06, 2006

!?!

Its a nice enough day.

You're thinking about mundane things.

what shitty weather * damn missed the last episode of desperate housewives * i wonder if i should bother watching v for vendetta * whats for dinner tonight *

(i never claimed to be an incredibly interesting person did i?)

then


BAM@*(&"


Its the end of semester!


newenglishprof.projects.articles.deadlinesofallsorts.exams.sleeplessnights



aagh.


sound horn please


Monday, April 03, 2006