Tuesday, August 24, 2010

do not read this

too much disobedience you are.

Monday, August 23, 2010

hello, long time no p.

p = post. not pee. long time no pee would be a real problem.

hello.

Do I have anything to say? That is the question.

I am off home this weekend on a very-much impromptu trip.
I am broke.
I am loaded with work.
I am feeling sick from the Chinese food I just had for dinner (again) (again for both the feeling sick part and the Chinese food for dinner part)
I am doing quite yay generally.

I went grocery shopping last night and bought an awesome load of stuff. Including a packet of black eyed beans. How cute are they ha.

hello little beans. 

Anyway. 
I also bought some other chickpea what not stuff. I bought RIN SUPREME BAR WITH EXTRA 50 GMS. Tide. I bought three cartons of juice. Two Nestle Milk cartons. Family pack of ice cream. Some tooth brushes. Paste. Not an exhaustive list. Then the shopkeeper man told me there's a number I could call on for HOME DELIVERY (ta da). That was my reward for the good-girl shopping I did. 

Then I watched "He's Just Not That Into You" on HBO. I like the movie. Made sense to me. I could identify with every kook character in there. 

The girl who thrives on drama
The girl who gets a little nutty about being lied to
The girl who checks her hundred inboxes, phone, chat, mail, fb what not in anxiety. 
The girl who.. ok, I identified with all the women in the movie. 
and some men. 
Let me not give too much away here.

Then I fell asleep while watching "Sleuth" which actually seemed like a really fun movie. 

I miss some of my friends. Some of my non-friends. Makes me feel a bit quiet at times. But, you know what they say..ok not They.. I say.  

Life is a road roller. 

deep.



Tuesday, August 17, 2010

help you once

Where do you place your precious life, love
How do you see it breathe and grow
Do you
Plan to leave it lying there, baby                                              
At her feet, though she has no soul

Why did you let love in your life, love
Why didn’t you heed those warning signs
Curiosity
Got the better of your mind, baby
Now watch your world explode in front of your eyes

And when
your mind goes into multicolour lines

And when
your heart draws a blank

Let me
Come to you , come beat you up save you darling
Make you believe that you did fine
You didn’t
I’ll still, make you believe, that you did fine

Promise me though
Promise me that
You will
Learn to, just let love be, love.
Learn to let it go, when its time.  


Monday, August 16, 2010

street garden

When it rains,
it pours,

makes my taxi ride a poem,
how the windows sparkle

and the street lights become dandelions



for good reason, it cannot be captured right in a phone camera. or any camera.
this way I can feel all special in my head.

still, I'm sure you understand
it was all very beautiful

Friday, August 13, 2010

doodle - decorations (part of the 'jobless at work' series)













yummy
i love drawing messybighairwomenfaces.











ok so this isnt a doodle, but the fate of my paratha wrap.






I feel sick and want to go home. and sleep. blergh.
i hate hangovers

Thursday, August 12, 2010

There is the door

When life gets good, its good
When it gets too good to be true, its super

But there is always that nagging feeling
This can’t be right (therefore the too good to be ‘true’ bit hitting its mark).
and
If I’m this happy, I’m about to get that sad.

It is not a joke. It is not a myth. It is true.

Life gets good, then it gets too good to be true, then it all comes crashing down.

This is only to let you have a good grip in reality.
Its an external survival support mechanism.

Nice cold splash.
One tight slap.
A kick – If you’ve watched Inception you would know what this means.
That nice feeling of falling.

You need that, to bring you back to your accepted reality.
Your life is not comfy and perfect.

This is good

This way you know you’re alive and not dreaming.

Thank you for always being that kick, that tight slap, that cold splash. Does not make me love you, but I understand, you are only doing this to keep me alive. Sad, but very alive.

Now, let me show you out
                                                                                     

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Photo(s) of the (Wednes)day


















how pretty is my silk sari. I don't have any new photos, because I'm useless.

What is With Everyone?

I know that the next year is still a few months away, but I think it is officially time for me to make a resolution. One which I have made and failed to keep up for a number of years now. Enough, though. It is time. There is a lot of change going on in my life right now, and all for the best. Never a better shot at attempting

"Try and stop being a big bitch to everyone you remotely care about." Because it really takes a lot for them to continue liking you for whoever you are. And you're getting worse by the year, making it harder by the year for them.

and also

"Try and stop getting so affected by the people around you and the stupid (in your opinion) things they do." Because they do not give a shit. You are the only one affected by it. For the worse. It does not help your blood pressure, your temper or your image.

Alright then, today shall be Day 1 of me with my new resolve. Let me see how this goes.

Super. Duper.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

My new word "Pfeh" and where to use it.

Hey man Johnny, why like a fool you say "Yes Papa, Yes Papa" to everything man?
Why don't you stop being a Papa's boy ha Johnny?
Live it up man.
Live it up and fight for your rights man.
You ate sugar, so what man, I ask you so what.
You ate sugar and you lied. SO WHAT man.
What is your dad's deal man.
Fuck, Johnny. I'm telling you man.
You are a fool. All that sugar, what can I say man.
You are a damned fool.

Pfeh.

Thursday, August 05, 2010

downhill

I had created a bunch of 'somewhat smiley' faces to use as my profile pic on gtalk. What started off as just making one happy looking face, went on to me making a proper series as the need arose. Then I started noticing the trend (not particularly a 'discovery' and you may say, so what? still, since I'm not posting about about anything else anyway). As the day wears on, the smileys always changed and almost always in the same order as below:

Morning.












Middle of the night.

I also made a pirate smiley for a friend. Here. 



Tuesday, August 03, 2010

lyrics right from the heart

Was listening to the radio this morning and I heard what is soon to be on repeat in my playlist (if only I could find the damned song online). Here are a few lines I remember.

Munni badnaam hui darling tere liye
Zandu balm hui darling tere liye

and it goes on, till the guy joins in to go

tum atom bomb hui darling mere liye.

I cannot wait. Of course I dutifully informed the one friend who loves these songs as much as I do.

sigh.