My biggest fear is probably that I might be mental. or heading there. or somehow it will sneak up on me and I will be branded completely crazy. or that I will develop a split personality which will go about tearing up my pillows and killing my cat (I dont have a cat).
My second and somewhat connected fear is that I am inherently evil. That I will turn out like the people I despise - because I am inherently evil and a hypocrite. I feel convinced I dont have a single good bone in my body. Not in a cruella deville way - I wont peel up puppies etc. More, of how little I care about anyone but myself - like a, like a tamil serial mother in law.
My third and unconnected fear is of death, dying. In painful or unpainful ways. Feh, everyone's got that going. right?
However, on good days I feel untouched by any of the above. I feel straight, sensible, good and unafraid.
Today is a good day - let me make the most of it.
My second and somewhat connected fear is that I am inherently evil. That I will turn out like the people I despise - because I am inherently evil and a hypocrite. I feel convinced I dont have a single good bone in my body. Not in a cruella deville way - I wont peel up puppies etc. More, of how little I care about anyone but myself - like a, like a tamil serial mother in law.
My third and unconnected fear is of death, dying. In painful or unpainful ways. Feh, everyone's got that going. right?
However, on good days I feel untouched by any of the above. I feel straight, sensible, good and unafraid.
Today is a good day - let me make the most of it.