(He goes to the tip, looks over, its a long fall. He steps back.)
Wow, that would hurt.
Yes, yes it would.
Splat, and that would be the end of me. The end of my existence
in this world, universe.. as far as it extends to whatever depths.
I would be out of here, forever.
Mm, for all he knows.. yes he would be out of there forever. But
he would never be alone, and what he seeks to escape would never
let him go.
Wow, it would hurt. Maybe death would be instantaneous.
But the drop, while Im falling, I would still be alive. I would still be thinking.
So.
Im such a horrible person, I should jump.
I have hurt her, I have lost her trust and her love.
Ive lost her smile, the smile reserved for me, gone.
Y e s, you deserve to die you bastard. Now just jump.
I spoilt her, what she was before she is no more.
Wow, Im a poet now? Argh, never serious! I dont even know if I truly
feel any more, if I ever truly felt at all. Do I actually care about her, what
I did to her, what she became due to my acts, my ideas, ME.
Id say the same old thing..
You dont know
..I dont know
Ive heard this enough, Im getting impatient. please..
Did I love her?
No, no you didnt. Stop thinking, stop it. stop.
I dont know. I know i never wanted her hurt, I never wanted her to cry,
I never wanted her to wake up unhappy. I wanted her to eat well, to buy her
nice things, to hold and hug her. Protect her.
what..
I failed, I did love her. And she loved me..
She did..
I dont even know where she is now.. I cant find her, and I shouldnt try to.
After that last fight, she left me forever.
I died, thats what.
I hope shes happy wherever she is. Its getting cold..
Thats right.. come to me